Another Waiting Season

Waiting.......

I start off strong......

I push in the middle.......

I get anxious  towards the end.......

And then I tell my daddy God....

"Waiting can be hard, sooooo hard Lord."

In the past I would get tired of waiting......

So tired I would walk ahead of God......
 Honestly, walk is not the word; I ran full force ahead of Him.

 I jumped and reacted in haste.

Doing things my way all because I was sick and tired of the season I was in.

It did not matter that I was being processed.....

Molded and shaped for my next season......

Healed and restored to walk stronger. 

I saw the here and now.....

Never taking the time to understand He was preparing me for what was to come next in my life. 

It was in my selfishness I demanded things to be now, not later.
And I would actually justify my actions and choices.
Sad I know. 

The reality of it all,  I was refusing instruction from my daddy God......

I was rebelling against His authority in my life....

I was doing things my way and messing up horribly. 
Many, many,many times.....
~sigh~

Thank you sweet Jesus for your mercy and grace!!!

 Here I find myself walking yet another season of waiting......

It has been for me a short but yet at times long season...

( 5 years)

Short in terms I can look back and see where I was to where I am now.......

What a transformation he has done in several areas of my life.
~happy dance~

Long in the sense I continue to impatiently look down the road for all his promises to be full filled.
Come on already.....

Because all should be done by now right??
That's what my mind tells me.......
My heart jumps in anticipation to agree with my mind.....
~yes, yes, yes~
But my soul says......
Wait, it's not time just yet. 
~Really?!?!?!?~

My inward war begins.

This time when the tug-a-war within starts, wisdom shows up strong...
 I heed to my daddy God's words.
It's hard, but he has given me strength.
I listen to those he has put in my path to encourage......
Wisdom is such a priceless gem.
I pray for HIS will not my mine....
I trust his ways are better than mine. 

It's hard when our flesh throws a tantrum for it's own fulfillment... 
When it screams and pitches fits for the now.....
Shouting for a quick release of satisfaction.
The compromising between mind,body and soul are now debating.....
Waring against each other. 
 But this time........
I wait.
I could have fallen.....
I almost did.
My obedience, by God's grace, has matured  over the years. 
~Still a work in progress~
I no longer wish to run ahead of  my daddy God .....
It is no longer my way......
It is all about him and for him.....
For me to move in his time is to bring glory to him. 
And for that reason and that reason alone......
I wait.
xoxox

Stacey

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding: In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths."
Proverbs 3:5-6

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