I have experienced several life changes over the last five years.
From divorce, to moving back to my home state.....
One daughter deploying and one graduating high school.
From a social butterfly to the protective isolation from my daddy God.
Isolation......
From always having many people around me.....
To just a few.....
Very few.
My life as a mom continued to stay busy, however my world outside of that became quiet.....
Too quite.
My daughters encouraged me to begin dating.
I wasn't interested......
Strangely......
Old friends from days gone extended invites to get together....
I was no longer comfortable with the venue.....
Surprisingly.......
And yet I loathed the quietness in my life.
I couldn't understand this strange change in my world.
I didn't mind my relaxing alone time....
But I did dislike the quiet loneliness that echoed through my mind.
Ok, I despised it......
It gave me too much time to think....
To relieve my past failures.....
My past hurts....
My brokenness.
I wasn't depressed, I was lost.
Lost in isolation and had no clue why I was there.
This was extremely new to me and I had no idea how to handle it.
Then came my bargaining with God.....
I am a people person Lord.....
I need to stay busy......
This is not me!!!!!!
Hellloooooo???
Are you listening??
I do not like this!!
Quietness invades me once again.
And the isolation continued.
I had promised God I would do things His way......
No longer would I pick and choose what I gave Him and what I would take.
It was all His way.
The isolation was His way.......
His way to heal me......
To restore me......
To teach me.......
Mold me......
Guide me........
I had always jumped from one place to the next in my life, never giving my daddy God time to work His plan into my life.
I carried my broken pieces with me like luggage, only to add more.
I had been smiling on the outside, and was shattered on the inside.....
I had to be placed in the quiet to hear His voice.....
The quiet to understand a deeper level of His love........
The quiet to obtain a newer level of faith......
A new level of trust.
I had to learn to slow down.....
To wait.....
To obey, fully....
To allow a shift in my life, a shift from my daddy God.
I had to see that by doing things "my" way, I had lost sight of the life my daddy God has me....
The path He has ordained for me to walk......
The work He has for me to do.
I have been gently reminded that He placed me under His protection for a purpose and a reason.
He knew if continued to stay where I was, do what I had always done, I would stay the same broken, hurt, rejected girl making the same damaging choices over and over again.
It has and always will be His desire for me to love him first.....
Seek him above all.....
Trust Him and no other.
Once again His words speak to my very core......
Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
The door of my "isolation" season has opened.......
I am walking through it healed, restored and renewed......
No longer am I lugging around past broken pieces.......
He is restoring to me all that was lost in His loving way.
From people, places and things, they are all who He has loving placed in my life and for that I am most grateful.
I encourage you, if you too are going through an isolation season, embrace it, knowing that His way is better than your own.
Better than my own...............
xoxoxo
Stacey
Psalm 121:7-8
7 The Lord will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
8 the Lord will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
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