My Bricks and Stones~

Over  the  course of my life, I have had many bricks and stones thrown at me.

Well not literally, but you get my point.............

There have been stones( words) of anger,strife, unforgiveness, judgement,criticism,mocking and gossip.

These stones were aimed at my heart and through the years, hit their mark on many occasions.

I took these stones and built a wall. A wall of defensiveness, unforgiveness and hurt.

I hunkered down behind my wall and sat in the middle of my hurt feelings, my broken heart and my anger.

I prayed, but didn't forgive......

I begged but didn't surrender....

I pleaded but didn't release......

I blamed but didn't take responsibility...

When my stones no longer phased me, the bricks began to fly.

The bricks were aimed at my stone wall. To tear down my so called defense and cause more damage.

My bricks ( emotions) came at me as rejection,  unworthy, unlovable,pathetic and a failure.

They were meant to take me out.......

To shatter my whole world as I knew it.....

The little world I had conformed to beyond my stone wall~

 With every brick that was thrown at me, I would add to my "stone" wall.

I cried .....but held on to my bricks.

I cried more.....but continued to build my wall of shame.

Through my tears I asked "why".....but did not walk outside my wall.

" You are more than this" "You are NOT this wall."

God's voice tells me.......

 I continued to build......... ~sigh~

Behind my wall of bricks and stones, I relived my past failures, mistakes and heart breaks.

Over and over and over.......

The" what ifs" tormented me.

The "should haves" and "could haves" bounced around in my mind constantly.

The bondage of my wall was destroying me and I was allowing it.

Sad I know.....

Sweet Jesus..............

God in his unfailing love began the task of tearing down my wall.

He sent his own construction crew.......

Friends who willingly walked me through some hard times, never wavering....

(The mortar is now beginning to crack)

Family who held me up and never let go.....

( The cracks are now growing larger)

Sisters in Christ to love me unconditionally in spite of my messy past...

( The stones are now shifting)

Prayer Warriors to stand in the gap for me....

( That wall, my wall, is now crumbling)

I can now see the sunlight and it feels good~

I look around at the rubble of bricks and stones.....

My bricks (emotions) now are labeled with love, forgiveness, endurance and faith.

They are based on God's words and have become my foundation.

My stones(words) now are painted with hope,courage,belief and strength.

They are based on God's promises to me, his daughter and are now the corner stones of my life

I now see my life as my daddy God does. No longer do I allow the voices of the world to throw

stones and bricks in hopes of taking me down and out.

Genesis 50:20

²⁰ You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.

What the enemy means for evil, our daddy God will turn it around for good!!!

When a stone/brick is tossed my way, I am now ready ......

I give it to Jesus!!

It becomes apart of my foundation in HIM and no longer a wall in my life~

Much Love~

Stacey

Romans 8:28

²⁸ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[a] have been called according to his purpose.