In the past I could not see when God shut a door in my life.
OK maybe I just didn't want to see it as a "shut" door.....
Alright, honestly I chose NOT to see it as a shut door.
I would turn the knob, pull, push shake and sometime take a crow bar to it.
I was determined to re-open that door.
Disillusion much?? Oh yeah and then some.
And some did re-open, only to find out much later down the road, it was so not the door for me....
Here is the kicker .......
When things went south, through my hurt feelings, humiliation, and broken heart I was angry with God.
Yes, I said it....I was angry with God!
(Don't worry, God is a big boy and can handle me and my anger)
It is mind boggling to me how a person (me) can fault God for our (my) choices, but we (I) do as we are human and allow our fleshly emotions to over take our spiritual wisdom.
Through our need of wanting things in the "now" and not waiting on God is when the shut doors are so appealing. It's the "I can make it happen" feelings that take us off the path God has set us on and brings us to a path of self destruction.
Self Destruction ......Emotionally, physically, and spiritually, all because we re opened a door that should have never been open to begin with.
In essence we are sacrificing our self worth, self respect, dignity and relationship with our daddy God.
Whether I pushed, kicked, or pried the door open, walked, ran skipped or jumped through it,
it was not a door I was to open.
Once again I was not seeking God, I was seeking me......
The positive that came from all the negative,I now can see when God is closing a door.
I can see his hand reaching for mine, and leading me away from the door He is closing.
I can hear his voice softly telling me " Not this door daughter"
Oh I can still get frustrated and give Him "my" reasons why I want what is behind that door, however because He loves me so much, He continues to hold out his hand for me, his daughter.
He may shut the door, but He will never take away his hand~
I encourage anyone that has had a door shut in their lives, keep walking.
The door God has for you is far better than any door we believe to be right ~
"The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing."